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Ive always been told by my peers who are now close enough for them to confront me, that I have a harsh unfriendly exterior. I cant help it. Regrettably though, this is something I am aware of. At least if I was ignorant about it, I could at least, fix it, right?

Honestly Ive always found myself with an inept ability to be spontaneous with new people or sometimes even with familiar ones. In other words, I am just socially awkward.  

Its not that I am uninterested, its just that I get lost for words. Of course things like these shouldnt be over analysed and thought about, but should just come naturally, but it has never really been that case for me. Ha-ha now I sound like I have a condition.

When a friend asked if I could change a characteristic about myself, my answer was almost instantaneous: To be more spontaneous.

Maybe with time.