september

Hello September :)

It feels like ive lost my sense of time ever since I finished university life. Ever since results came out in July it feels like im stuck in a limbo of the long year-end holidays since all ive ever known in my life was to associate my long holidays with year-end holidays. I also don’t really consider myself an official “graduate” since the graduation ceremony itself is in November, but yes the status still stands: I am unemployed (haha).

It’s been a little over a month since those final results were out and the official start of my unemployment. I am however starting to apply for jobs which are exciting news to me! Truly am excited for what the future may hold but I also realize that my enthusiasm usually gets the best of me and that I can succumb to falling face down into the pits of disappointment. Yes, everything is still a little hazy but Im on my pathway away from pessimism.

On a side note, being at home has really got me going on some self-reflection mojo. I realize that I did mention once that if you had me on Facebook, Twitter and Instagram, you would be able to piece what ive probably been doing.

I think the forlorn thing is how those platforms have become something that defines us. I think we are all so hung up on what people say or don’t say that we solely paint a picture around an individual based on those borders and that tethering outside the lines is impossible and unrealistic. 

For example, just because I don’t post about how I can play the drums doesn’t mean that I cant. Just because I don’t talk about my extremely sweaty workouts doesn’t mean I don’t exercise. The same goes with saying that if ive never or rarely express my deep affectionate love for my significant other doesn’t mean I love them any less. I think we’ve all (and by no means am I excluded) succumb to that habit consciously or unconsciously.

Yes the statement still stands, you will be able to get a grasp of what ive been up to through all those platforms, but I guess what im trying to get across is that in all honestly I do love sharing my thoughts and fun times on my platforms, but I really don’t want it to be the only deciding factor of my character, what I am capable of and a podium to make sure people approve of me.

and just so you know, I cant play the drums and yes I do love my significant other :)